"And as we sat there listening to the carolers, I wanted to tell Brian it was over now and everything would be okay.
But that was a lie, plus, I couldn`t speak anyway.
I wish there was some way for us to go back and undo the past.
But there wasn`t.
There was nothing we could do.
So I just stayed silent and trying to telepathically communicate how sorry I was about what had happened.
And I tought of all the grief and sadness and fucked up suffering in the world, and it made me want to escape.
I wished with all my heart that we could just leave this world behind. Rise like two angels in the night and magically...Disappear"